The Soldier I couldn't forget. I was right there, right on your shoulder, I watched you die, I watched you leave this life. To look at your face no one could have known you had been shot. I couldn't look upon your face once you went. It wasn't my place to feel your … Continue reading The Soldier I Couldn’t Forget
When Manifesting saves your life .. ...I was a seriously poor kayak racer age 17 and living in an inner city west London estate .. I had been using a £100 pound old boat to race and train. I had to bail it out after each training session or racing run. No amount of black … Continue reading When Manifesting Saves Your Life …
There is one picture that when I ever see it.....IT... SHOCKS... ME. It shakes me to my very bones because I see the mask I so tightly fitted to my face. The mask to hide the invisible scars I was now carrying. It shocks me because I can see that all ready I was … Continue reading Mand In The Mirror
As my children get older I expect the feelings from their birth to dull. I was shocked last year to experience a labour pain for a split second as I remembered Tillys arrival. Sinking so deep into the moment I felt a contraction. I reminded myself I wasn't in labour and carried on with … Continue reading The Truth Is A Beautiful Thing…Accepting My Birth Stories
When was the last time, you took time for you? I had to make a hard decision back in November. One where I was facing huge conflict. Talk at an event or prioritise my self and my needs. I had said I would speak. As time ticked on. I knew deeply that it was the … Continue reading When Was The Last Time You Took Time For You?
Somedays I forget I am the the wealthiest person alive. I have love and I am loved. I can feel joy and happiness any moment I choose. My time is mine and I use it how I please. I have food, and a roof over my head. My health is good. My family is with … Continue reading When Grief Hits You Like A Slegde Hammer In The Heart
The warrior in you will not stand down. Every day you rise, rise into another apocalyptic day. Your heart aches each beat more painful than the last. Your body heavy with the invisible load crushing you from the shoulders down. Your body crumpling under the burden. Standing up takes every drop of strength you can … Continue reading FIND THE LITTLE VICTORIES …
The Boat and the Breeze The night closed in. Heavy dark clouds cloaking the stars. A little boat was trying to cross a choppy sea. Being buffeted from left and right. Its tiny wooded heart beating so fast she thought it would splinter. The little boat was so afraid and all alone. The little boat … Continue reading The Boat And The Breeze
I know you are out there …Fighting the big fight …The fight with Anxiety, Depression, Fear, Terror. The fight with yourself. The fight with your mind. The fight with your history. The fight with your experiences. The fight with all the shit they told you. The fight with the labels they gave you. The fight … Continue reading When you cant take anymore…
Today I broke a habit, smashed it like Wonder Woman breaking a rifle across her back. I left the house with out my phone. The chorus of gremlins began singing in my head, you can't drive your car without having your phone! What if something happens? What if nursery call? But here I was leaving … Continue reading The Imperfect Perfect Coffee..